In the midst of grief many of us find that we think about our own death, or even wish we were dead.
It can seem like a way out of coping with the problems and pain of a drug or alcohol related bereavement.
Although it is common, it is important to find someone to talk to about these feelings.
If you think you might act on your feelings, you can call Samaritans on 116 123.
When someone who has been a central part of our life dies we can feel hopeless and despairing.
It is not unusual to think about our own death, or even to think about taking our own life as a way of escaping the pain.
Drug and alcohol related bereavement brings extra challenges and isolation, and the idea of not having to cope with any of the emotional and practical problems can seem tempting.
While it is normal, it is important to talk to someone you trust, especially if you are finding it difficult to stop thinking about it.
If you feel you might act on your feelings, then you must tell someone.
If you don’t have anyone who you can trust, you can call Samaritans on 116 123 or email firstname.lastname@example.org.
Most of us who have been troubled with suicidal feelings are glad in the end that we did not act on those feelings.
You can read more about grief and about how others have coped here.
Remember, you are not alone there are people who want to help you.